Yeah, so it’s cancer. Now, what are we going to do about it? 🤷🏾♀️ What’s the treatment plan? 🤷🏾♀️ When are you going to tell people? 🤷🏾♀️ WHAT are you going to tell people? 🤷🏾♀️ Needless to say, I was at a loss. So we cruised into the Easter holiday with our families like everything was okily dokily.
From what I remember, Easter ‘23 was stressful AF. This had nothing to do with the holiday itself but it did have everything to do with the fact that I had information we were withholding from our family and friends. Information that people would obviously want to know but I’m not sure I wanted to tell anyone at all. Nothing to see here! Everything is cool. BUT ALSO NOTHING IS COOL AND, LIKE, EVERYTHING BLOOOOOOOWS!!!!! I don’t think anyone picked up on my anxieties. Crisis averted, for the moment.
My hush campaign very quickly ran into a snag. What was I going to do about work? You know, that place I spend more time at than my own house! The people I spend more time with than my own family! I’m out here using sick days like they’re going out of style. For a little perspective, I think I used only 3 or 4 sick days in all of the pervious year. 🚩 How do I cover up these days I’m blazing through? Because if there’s one thing we know about work it’s that folks are gonna talk. So, I called my boss and did the very thing I didn’t want to do. It went something like, “Hey, you busy? I HAVE CANCER!” and for that I am sorry. But as shitty as my delivery was I do believe that it was a big step for me to actually say those words, in a non sarcastic voice, because I did in fact have it and thinking it to myself and saying it out loud brought about completely different feelings.
It would then take about another month for me to create and share… “the video”. My seemingly perfect solution to how I planned to notify the world about this very serious time in my life 🤦🏾♀️ I wanted to be able to deliver terrible news while insisting that everything is still “fine”. -❤️ VA